I have really awful memory. I always second guess myself and have to often take photos to remember if I’ve taken medication and when (which I can tell by the time stamp on my phone) sometimes I even second guess that “did I ACTUALLY take that ibuprofen? What if I take it now and I overdose? Or what if I forgot to take a picture and I take too much?” It’s really maddening and I’m wondering if anyone else is like this? I also forget things like if the glass of water I just filled up is the one I just put down somewhere or what if it’s soapy water and I drink it and get sick? Or it’s someone else’s and it’s poisoned and I die? I know it sounds outlandish and ridiculous but these are my every day, almost constant struggles. I am unsure if it is OCD or anxiety related or both? It’s like unless I am intentionally saying in my mind, while I am looking at something, “this is what I am doing” or “this is how much I am taking” (I have to count my Tylenol and ibuprofen several times and take photos of it before I even get myself to take it) and whenever I take my lexapro at night I look at it in my hand and I say in my head “one and one half tablets” before I take it, so I am less likely to forget how much or what I took. Is anyone else this way? I don’t want to use a pill organizer for the medication thing because I’ve done it before and then I forget if I actually refilled it with the right amount or whatever. It just doesn’t work for me. But generally I get like this with most things and wondering if I’m alone. It’s kind of isolating and I feel bad because I’ll often ask my boyfriend “did you see me take this?” And I don’t want to be reliant on him even though he’s great about it. Anyone else with me here?
I can completely relate to this.
I am sorry you also struggle with this but I have to say I do find some comfort in knowing I’m not alone. It makes me feel crazy.
I have this as well. There is just so much going on in my life that little things like taking pills: I zone out and forget I take them. I know you said a pill organizer didn't work but I use that and alarms on my phone that tell me what pills to take. My husband helps out though and refills my organizer weekly. I have about 10 meds I take a day and he really helps me remember all them and I have another person to verify I'm taking the right meds. I know it sucks to have to depend on someone but we all need help sometimes
I'm a therapist and it sounds like you have a lot of intrusive thoughts consistent with OCD. Have you spoken to your pcp about this? I would suggest a medical work up, neurological testing or a psychological evaluation, and therapy! Sounds absolutely exhausting and 100% worth addressing professionally.
I'd also wonder about ADHD!
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