First In-Person Date Anxiety in Long Distance Relationship

I recently moved across the country (over 2000 miles) to be closer to my boyfriend (and also to escape a toxic family situation but it sounds sweeter and less....sad when I say I moved to be closer to my boyfriend, lol). We're going to be going on our first IN PERSON date on Thursday and I'm filled with so much anxiety. Its the usual BPD things. I'm not good enough for him and he's going to realize that and leave me so I should bite the bullet and ghost him before he can hurt me, blah blah blah, yall know the drill. I hate that I'm like this. I hate that this has happened enough times for me to know its starting before it actually starts. I dont really need any advice (although if anyone else is in a similar situation or relates at all, validation and comfort is always welcomed💖) I just wanted a place to put how I'm feeling into words and vent my frustrations out into the aether.