Confession Time: My Obsession with Fictional Characters

Okay, people it's Tusday the day of our lord and savor. so it's confession time. I'll go first. I get overly obsessed about fictional characters. my latest obsession is smug, shape shifting, often times witty Bartimaeus from Amulet of Samarkand. like I think about them constantly and kind of wish they were real. I often like to imagine I am Nathaniel and lived in that universe with Bartimaeus just having adventures with them and even getting closer to them as our adventures continue. and I've always felt weird about these crushes because they can live rent free in my mind constantly for years at a time and it makes me feel like a freak.