Yana_ara

184d

I recently got into a relationship. I am struggling with black and white thinking along with ptsd. I feel as though the ptsd is making me go from idealising him as my FP to feeling completely heartbroken when he doesn’t understand me. It’s stopping me from doing basic things and I am clinging onto codependency by wanting to stay with him for days on end. I think I overwhelmed him this last time I was at his house 0.o I feel guilty about it but he wants me to come back tomorrow for a few days. I feel as though he is unknowingly being emotionally manipulative and I kind of attacked him for it earlier and he hasn’t talked to me :( I want to leave him alone but I also need to make sure we are keeping plans for this weekend. I HATE having this disordered thinking and feeling SO STRONGLY emotionally literally all of the time. I crave balance in all areas. I hate feeling codependent because I end up not feeling grounded after a while. I don’t feel suicidal but I want to go inpatient. My life is brilliant.

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

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  • cjness

    183d

    I completely understand this. 100%. I am here if you need to chat.

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