Struggling with Depression and Negative Thoughts

I believe some people are just simply incapable of giving love & compassion. Many ppl who treat their children this way, were treated the same when they were kids. Even if that's not the case with her, just try to remember that she may be suffering a mental illness that hasn't been acknowledged & treated. "Normal" parents don't say things like that to their children. Most importantly, write down those words your mother said & burn them. They're taking up precious retail space in your head and have no business being there!

Honey don't let your mama put you down like that that's so messed up!! When I was a kid my mom treated me like shit I was 1 of 6 kids 3 girls 3 boys we was considered the "Tuttle bunch" my dad who was my step-dad found my mom and took in me and my sisters and brother he had 2 boys of his own. I was shown my whole life by my mother that she never cared about me, one time in church I was trying to love on her and she pushed me away then I moved to another pue and i seen her pull my younger step-brother to her and she started loving on him and it made me soooo mad I wished and prayed my whole childhood that one day I'd be told I was adopted because my whole life I felt like an outcast even my biological "spermdonor" and his sister and mom treated me badly and beat me over absolutely nothing... and when I got older I projected the feelings I had on guys that wasn't good for me, even tho I had my step-dad who was a GREAT Father I didn't understand what he meant to me till I lost him 3 years ago... but my mom added to my problems and I married someone who wasn't the person I thought he was but I'm slowly learning how important it is to let go of the past and mainly to take care of myself first and foremost. Idk what exactly is going on in your life to make you think that your a horrible person but I think you need to take some time for yourself and if the people in your life are causing you more problems then not then maybe you need to get those people out of your life!!!

Hey Tobie, I know what it's like to have a mother that acts like they hate you. My mom has said similar things among much more, it's hard to accept yourself after being told you were horrible your entire life. After a while I realized what she was saying was really just projections of her own insecurities, and had nothing to do with who I was as a person. While this didn't make the pain or scar of her words go away, it made it easier to grow away from that idea that I'm a horrible person. I've only lived away from her for 2 years and i still talk to her, luckily with less fights because of the distance, but I still struggle with those thoughts she put in my head my entire life. I'm here if you need to talk to someone that understands 🖤 just know your mother's words are not the truth, and you define who you are. And you are worthy of love from others, platonic or otherwise.

I've felt that way too but your mom is wrong and she should have never said that to you.