Dealing with Violent and Sexual Obsessions in OCD

Yeah, I've had these obsessions as well. I've had sexual OCD thoughts about children, animals, and relatives. I know it's not a true attraction because every time the thought comes, I am extremely discomforted by it. But my OCD tries to tell me that it is true. I've also had sexual OCD thoughts about my boyfriend's family, particularly his brother and father. One day, my OCD was so bad that I dreamt about his brother sexually that night... And said his name when my boyfriend could hear me. My boyfriend told me he had to sleep on the couch that night because he was so upset about it. I'm grateful that he trusted me when I told him I'm not really attracted to his brother, but I must admit that I didn't feel comfortable telling him that I had OCD thoughts about it all day. I just told him that I have really weird and disturbing dreams that don't always reflect my true feelings - which wasn't a lie. I feel guilty for not telling him the whole truth, but how would he understand? When I am most depressed, I find myself with self harm OCD thoughts as well. Somehow I think that I'm not safe around blades even though I have no real urge to use them on myself. It causes immense stress and a lot of problems because I'm already depressed and have a hard time calming down as a result. I don't think I've told anyone about any of this - not even my therapist when she brought up her own intrusive thoughts about similar topics. I feel completely alone with it because I'm so afraid that someone will not understand me when I tell them I have disturbing intrusive thoughts and think I actually have those feelings.

Oh yeah definitely. I actually was hospitalized multiple times because I planned to kill myself to prevent myself from acting on them. I have better coping mechanisms now though!

I have had obsessions that somehow I am sexually attracted to children or animals. I know truly that I am not, but I am so deeply worried that somehow I am or will become; especially if I have children some day. It’s something I feel like I cannot share or talk about for fear of people thinking that I actually am attracted, though I have been around many animals and children with not a single sexual thought besides fear that I could become attracted somehow. In reality, I am asexual, so I am not sexually attracted to really anyone, but OCD is truly a powerful thing to make someone so non-sexually interested to worry about something like that.

i have harm ocd, i didnt get diagnosed until 18. i used to use self harm as a coping mechanism to "get the urge/thought out" so that only i would be the one getting hurt and so that I would never hurt anyone else. harm ocd is such a vicious cycle because it's so so hard to tell anyone about it since ocd is never really known for that specific subtype, and then you're faced with the fear of being institutionalized or being called a psychopath for having such horrible thoughts

Yes absolutely horrific ones ugh sometimes I hate myself