Struggling with ADHD Medication - Seeking Advice

so I'll start with my history before my question. from 7-20 I took Focalin (I think it only has XR) and it helped me from 7-13. past that I just kept increasing the dose to no avail. at 20 I switched to Vyvanse XR for 6 months. it made it hard for me to read and there would be random times in the day during which I could not read or focus and I had to force myself so hard to pay attention it was so stressful. I got off and went back to Focalin for a bit before switching to concerta XR. Concerta made me realize the other 2 made me suicidal only because concerta didn't. Concerta actually had no side effects! but also didn't help... we kept upping the does annnnd nothing. I explained to my psychiatrist my energy levels throughout the day on concerta were extremely inconsistent and there would be times of focus but I had no control over them at all. ive been considering asking to try something that is not XR. However, I would like to know if anyone else has experienced a loss of effectiveness of XR medications and if so have you found any relief in short release medications? has anything else helped?