Struggling with Body Image at the Beach

I wore a bikini with high waisted bottoms, I brought like an extra swim suit tankini top just incase but the high waisted bottoms that cover shit worked good enough lol

I’m struggling with this thought process lately too. I gained like 30 pounds over the past couple years and it’s been rough adjusting. I want to lose some of the weight but it’s hard to stay motivated too. I will say that buying those high waisted bikinis help me with just feeling more attractive and being more comfortable at the beach and I also noticed now that I’m buying clothes more flattering to my weight and figure it’s helping me feel less insecure as well

I feel you... I'm the largest and most depressed of my friends and seeing them happy and living their lives makes me feel extremely envious and inferior. They may notice my weight change, but no one's ever tried to make me feel less for it. It's all just me. I can't even look in a mirror, and sometimes I'll rush past the bathroom mirror after I shower so I don't have to see my body. It's so sad because we only have one body and one life, we don't deserve the pain we cause to ourselves. It's easy to say stop comparing yourself to others, but at this point, I know I have to stop because I'm on my own journey and going at my own pace. Just wish it were easier to accept myself and keep moving forward even if my body is not how I want it to look