Feeling Guilty for Triggering My Relationship

I'm married (almost 4 years) and have PTSD due to sexual abuse. Theres certain things I just can't do sexually, or things that I can sometimes handle but not always. Hes always super understanding, if I say I can't do that particular thing right then he doesn't question it at all and gives me what I need. I still have occasional flashbacks and when I do, he's immediately no longer in the "mood" and switches to comforting me. He'll go get my anxiety meds if I need that but otherwise he'll just sit with me and comfort me until it passes. Hes learned that because of what happened, seeing his face really helps me to come back to reality, and hearing his voice, so he talks to me and gently gets me to look at him so I can remember that I'm safe. Sometimes I do feel horrible that he's repairing damage that he didn't cause, I mean I was 16 when the incident happened and he's younger than me, he was 11 when this thing happened and now he's picking up the pieces. I ask him so often what I did to deserve him and he just reminds me why I deserve nothing less.

🙌🙌💕 here👍right here. 15 years my husband has dealt with the brunt of my trauma and the poor man has done nothing to me. Sometimes I'm rational enough to realize that and I swear I fall In love even more. I feel you I do.