Penpalz

278d

I still wanna die... please someone let me. Or, give me a better option to my problems.

Chronic Memory Loss

Generalized pain

Ketamine

Chronic Disturbance of salivary secretion

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  • Katty

    278d

    Life is worth it I promise!!! It’s so hard right now and I see you trying. I would recommend reaching out to people and trying to find a therapist and/or anti depressants if you haven’t already. I believe in you. Life is worth it even if you can’t see that now.

  • Oceans51

    278d

    I've been there it does pass..like Katty said good medicine n therapist..you're not alone!

  • AngelBehr

    278d

    Hey I understand. I’ve been there. It’s very hard to not feel that way sometimes. The thing that helps me most is just talking it out with God. Don’t want to be pushy but do you know Jesus? Looks like we both have PTSD so something/s have happened in our lives that were very bad to say the least. I used to not understand why and couldn’t understand why God allowed it. I then realized that God didn’t allow it but the person/people who hurt me made the choice. God protected me and got me through it. Took a very long time to get that. When I was dealing with finding my faith again I had some pretty heated conversations with Him. Even yelled and got angry. I believe that is ok. All children at some point get angry with their parent. Talk to God like you talk to anyone else here on earth. It ok. He will listen and it will make you feel better. Get into Gods word. Do you have a Bible? If you don’t and would like one I would be happy to make that happen. Start here. Philippians 4:13…. I know you don’t know me but I care about you as a sister in Christ. Please know I am here if you need a shoulder.

  • BearsMom

    278d

    I know exactly how you feel.

  • DrLJ

    277d

    Good morning. I often feel like you. Would you like to talk? I would like to listen and help. Please reach out💕🌸

  • A_Delicate_Flower

    277d

    This might sound strange but I read this book a few months ago that really helped me mentally/emotionally. It's called "No Bad Parts" by Richard C. Schwartz. I listened to it on audible. I still reference it when I'm having a hard time. I think I'll always keep that one in my back pocket. I hope you find relief!

  • Bijoux_bean22

    277d

    Someone at my school went through with it last week. The school handled it incorrectly from start to finish. This is a symptom, it’s flaring. Go to a therapist, get meds, get the flare to calm down. Always remember that even if we don’t know you in person we care about you. Reach out if you need to. And, no, whatever you decide is not being selfish. Hugs 💕

  • SweetFlaWitch78

    277d

    It may not look like it right now but believe me when I tell u that u have a purpose for being alive. U r important to people and I know u don't want to cause them pain. I know u r hurting inside. How I know it's I've been where u r not to long ago. I wanted to die. I thought and still think at times that everyone would be better off dead. I was about to end my life and my oldest son walked in. He automatically knew what I was going to do and he ran up to me, grabbed me and hugged me. He started crying and saying please don't leave us. We love u. In that moment I realized how much I do have to live for. Honestly yes I've still had suicidal thoughts but I always remember what my son said to me. I said this to tell u that I don't know u but I have love for everyone. Just know that u r loved by someone. Please talk to someone or u can talk to me ❤️

  • Ms.MisfitMagician

    277d

    I feel this 💯👌 on the daily. I'm so sorry that you're having to go through this. I struggle with having that deeply rooted desire to no longer exist, accompanied by a persisting, gaping, emptiness. It is exhausting. BUT, there's one mantra or saying or whatever that I use as a little motivation, perhaps it will help you too! And the saying is: "Today is one day closer!" 😁 The purpose of this, is to come up with one goal or one event/date that u are looking forward to in the future, & using that as a daily motivation by reminding yourself that you are that much closer to reaching whatever THAT goal, ect is :) i.e. when I was growing up, i would dream of saving up enough money to buy whichever critter my heart had set on getting as a new pet haha so I would tell myself, that today was one day closer to getting my, "___" whichever pet it was at the time that I wanted. Make sense? It doesn't have to be something tangible necessarily, today can be one day closer to moving out, or one day closer to becoming the best version of yourself that you can be, or today can be one day closer to taking that trip you've been wanting to take, ect... It might also help to write,"Today is one day closer!", onto a piece of paper, & hang it up somewhere easily visible so that u can glance at it throughout the day. 👍😊 Sending you lots of love & I hope this helped! 💕

  • SillyShea

    277d

    I can totally relate. I wish I didn’t have so many obligations in life and that people would just let me go. They don’t understand what it’s like to live in constant pain, anxiety, and all the rest. People think it’s so selfish when someone kills themselves but I don’t. I think it’s selfish of everyone else to not care about that persons quality of life. But, I’m making it thru, and you can do it too. Some days are so much harder than others but there’s always tomorrow, there’s always the chance that there’s a good day right around the corner. You just have to ride thru the waves of bad shit to get to the good days. Please hold on, don’t give up yet. Please message me if you want, I would love to chat with you. We have so much in common.

  • Swinko00

    277d

    Have you ever tried Kratom? It helps me sometimes when I’m on the edge. I get it from my local head shop/ tobacco shop

  • Panda_Rose

    277d

    Ketamine therapy is newly approved for suicidal ideation! But yes, do all the things you can to make it through- therapist, ask someone to watch you, meds, etc. You’re worth living!!

  • Bijoux_bean22

    277d

    There is a bit from a song that goes “If we can only keep you safe until tomorrow, I promise you there’ll be ten thousand better days, I do believe the things you thought you heard and saw the things that made your heart beat like a thousand drums, if we can only keep you safe until tomorrow comes” I think about it when I start to feel like this and it helps just a little.

  • TerminallyUnique

    276d

    I’ve been there often…and recently too. But everything can change in such a short time—you will look back on this time and be grateful you didn’t take action. Life is hard. It’s really hard at times!!! But there are moments of beauty and joy if you look for them. Even in the darkest places. I find that helping others helps me feel better. And if I’m really down, I take a trip to an animal shelter and pet some stray cats or volunteer to walk some dogs. Also, sun exposure helps A LOT!!!! Get as much as you can! And you can always call a crisis hotline! 1-800-273-8255 Many of them will allow texting now too which is sometimes easier when you are feeling stuck and isolating. Hang in there friend!

  • JulieAna

    275d

    You have no idea how important you are ❤️ tomorrow is always better and please talk talk to us here talk to anyone just talk it helps wishing you well my love you will get through this i did never thought it was possible ❤️💕😊

  • Kat1969

    275d

    I understand it’s depressing to always hurt. I try to maintain a positive front for myself and my family. Hang in there, get help , get some medication. Just keep swimming!

  • A_Delicate_Flower

    275d

    💕

  • mel0808

    275d

    ❤️

  • Trina

    271d

    😥 You are strong! You will get through this! If you ever need to talk I am here for you 💕

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