Struggling with an Eating Disorder

⚠️tw⚠️ I don’t think my brain truly realizes how bad this has gotten,the calorie/carb counting,weighing myself constantly,body checking,etc.I just can’t seem to stop.Even when the chart says I’m underweight that part of my brain will say, “it’s not enough,lose more.” No matter how many people say I look fine, I will always have this negative image of myself in my head. I mean today I was trying to get some snacks so I could have something at least to get me through the school days. I kid you not, I stood in that isle for 30 minutes looking at every box on every shelf carefully checking the food label. It’s made me realize how much it’s consumed my mind. It makes me nauseous to even read or type the word “food”,or to even look at pictures of it,and I avoid the kitchen at all costs. I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know how to stop obsessing over my body, and measurements,and having my brain work a full time job as a food calculator.