Finding Closure After Losing a Parent

My dad was a mortician, death is not the same as "most" for myself. I've lost both parents to DUI plural... being 2 separate occasions. Most of my family have past. Death for me now ... Like trying to get to a new country that I don't haven't finished the background check for the "Special Passport" I need to get to the Country where they all reside now. There is not technology, so communication is impossible. There is more information that I need to aquire before i qualify. It helps to make death easier to understand for me. Wishing you Love ❤️ and Light ✨️

..... this is a question that hits home, but more in my yard than the actual house..... My stepmother passed away from cancer almost 15 yrs ago. We didn't have the best relationship, there were certain things she did as a child that was hard for me to let go of, but I always imagined that one day when I got older, we would be good friends. Everyone else seemed to like her, maybe it would just take us time??? Well, time didn't allow it. She died before I really even knew she was sick. I can understand her not telling me, but I feel as though it was rather selfish because there were things we needed to talk about, and I'm stuck with a one-sided conversation. I deal with it by just knowing that that's just the way life is, not every i will be dotted, not every t crossed. Evidently, it meant more to me than it did to her. Maybe that was her last way of sticking it to me in the end. If so, she got her last hoorah, but I won't let it pin me down. I'm still here, I'm the one that's got to still get through these good days and these bad days. There's just not enough room on my plate to be concerned about the living AND the dead.... there's just not. 🤷🏿‍♀️

For some additional context, my mom died when I was 10. So this is by no means a new situation, I’ve just been struggling with it a lot lately as I’ve worked on my mental health.