Afraid to Jinx My Good Mood

@TheDom98 you need to understand that this is exactly where I stand and what I have been dealing with for the past week which has been the longest week of my life. mine has been described as server anxiety and I know it. It happened with the flip of a switch and now I thank every moment I have of not thinking at all. Which I also get after myself because I my brain says, no wait you need to be thinking and remembering how bad things could be. I wake up in the morning feeling lost and scared and out of place. I need to do breathing exercises and remind myself who I am, who my boyfriend is and that I am safe and secure and he loves me and I love him and everything is ok. I DO feel you.

@JoMo what is wrong with us?! 🤦🏻‍♀️ this is literally what it’s like.

@JoMo whenever my husband comments about how well I’m doing I start to pay attention to everything and then suddenly start struggling haha it’s so cruel.