ricecake

15d

how do I deal with not wanting to be here? not wanting to be breathing

Polycystic Ovary (PCOS)

Depression

Attention-Deficit Disorder

Anxiety (Including GAD)

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  • Love._.kookie

    15d

    Thx for posting this because I struggle with the same thing then I remember all the things and people that’s in my life and how they would be affected by my death.

  • Clockwise

    15d

    While I haven’t attempted to kill myself i have had the thoughts of not caring how i died i just wanted to die the only thing that had kept me from actually doing it is the fear of going to hell if I did

    • Love._.kookie

      15d

      that’s also another thing keeping me alive

  • Peregrin

    15d

    There's always a reason to keep going, no matter how small. For me it's my dog, but it could be as simple as ice cream. It doesn't make the feeling go completely away, but it helps.

  • Okiekrafter

    15d

    Think of your family. Your friends. I want you in this world. I suffer from the same things. Talk to a therapist or meditation

  • OurLadyOfChaos

    15d

    I struggle with not wanting to exist as well. I have been on pages upon pages of antidepressants and mood stabilizers and anti anxiety meds for over a decade (I stopped recently) and even on half the meds it didn't get much better. The most I can do is "I have to exist bc my dogs wouldn't understand" or my family (parents, husband, what have you) would be distraught. I'm going to try therapeutic psylocibin soon, I think. Its just so hard- everyday- wishing I didn't exist. Maybe antidepressants will work for you? Maybe an alternative therapy (ketamine, MDMA, psylocibin etc) done in a controlled and not recreational manner? Idk. Wish I did. I'll post if I do the psylocibin to update.

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