Feeling Alone in My Disability Journey

tw for a bit of a rant and prolly some internalized ableism I hate being disabled. like dont get me wrong I doubt there's anyone that really WANTS to be disabled but it's just so .. exhausting and I feel so alone all the time. my tourettes and seizures took my senior year from me, my ability to drive, and now it's getting to the point where I can hardly work my part time job. my shifts aren't even four hours long and it's still getting to be too much for my legs. when will it end?? will it end up taking everything from me? I can't even really go to anyone in this house when I get to feeling like this and it makes me even more isolated than being trans. I don't have a good idea of what's happening to me and that's terrifying. anyone in my position would be terrified but whenever I voice that I'm just dismissed, or talked over, or worse yelled at. I am... so lonely in this journey. I feel like I've lost so much to my disabilities and my family doesn't seem to care. I feel like there's two options for how they react when we do figure out what's causing all this 1) they act like they never treated me like this and that they've always been supporting of me so that they can use my disabilities to make them look good 2) they keep acting like this but now just not denying that I'm disabled