I know what you mean. Sometimes I wish I could just crawl out of my body. A lot of the time I don't want it anymore

Yeah I know I wish I could crawl out of mine too

It has only been 4 months since I was sexually assaulted and almost killed this is 3 times

I understand the terrible feeling of not getting better or improving mentally. Just yesterday, I was feeling very suicidal and frustrated because I knew I couldn’t end myself. I didn’t want to traumatize my family and friends. They’re the main thing that’s keeping me back, and it makes me feel terrible whenever I get suicidal because it means I’m selfish for even considering it knowing how much it would hurt those around me. And as usual, I end up passing out from exhaustion and slept till the next day, which today, ended up being a decently good day. There’s no way I could ever comprehend your experience and situation, but for me personally, if there’s even a chance that a good day can occur, it’s worth hanging on in the end. When my depression is not taking over me, I’m able to remind myself of the good days, however rare they are, and that gives me strength and hope that we will all have a chance to get better. We need to be patient with ourselves and take the time that we deserve.🙏 stay strong 🫂❤️☘️

I say this to every single person alive who has had to suffer, survive, and endure through such a terrible experience; I am truly sorry for whatever you have gone through, or what you may be currently feeling (I have PTSD from CSA myself, and I still can't begin to fathom what women go through after it happens to them). You are still very much a beautiful, precious, and irreplaceable person, and I pray that you are able to find healing, as well as special people in your life who love you and help you to try to feel safe in your life again.

My truma gets better every year. Try to live the moment. I hope yours gets better each moment you breathe.

I also got raped two years go, I’m still terrified to go through the neighborhood my abuser lives in, if you want to private chat I might be able to help you. I usually find it helps to surround yourself with people who make you feel safe in your sexuality, or if you’re asex or that’s not your thing, friends and family you feel safe around. Due to ptsd I developed this crushing fear of people touching me randomly so I try and avoid lines and things but with my best friend I’m ok with him touching me, usually it feels like my skin is burning when people touch me randomly but having people you can feel safe around and who can make you laugh is one of the best ways to start feeling better.

I get it. it's been 5 years for me. it doesn't get... better, per say, but it gets easier to live with. I think about it less. I'm able to look at myself in mirrors again. I can be intimate. it gets easier. I believe in you

This next year will be 10 years since the first time I remembered being raped. (I was raped also 13 years ago, at age 14, but I did not remember that assault until this last year in therapy.) It does not get better, but it does get easier to cope with. Some things you will never be able to do again. For example, I can't have both my ears covered at the same time by anything, not even headphones. Ear muffs are out of the question. Regardless, I have learned to move forward. That is just a part of my journey now, part of the pressure added to create the diamond I have become.