Struggling with Toxic Family Relationships

i had a different situation at my family home. it was very very toxic. i turned 18 about 5 months ago and i pretty much got kicked out. i thought it was so unfair and i had so much hatred for my mum and stepdad and my sister. i still don’t get on with them but my mental health has improved sooo much since moving out, my mental health was really really bad before and it’s still not amazing but it’s better and i feel much calmer and safe even though i live in a shared house with strangers. the simple thing of not being around all the toxicity in the place you’re supposed to feel loved, safe and accepted, is really helpful. i would say maybe talk to the council about housing benefits if you don’t have the money to move out and then that’ll help contribute to the rent. and perhaps that additional space between yourself and your family will help to heal your relationship if you want to become closer with your mum again. you won’t have as much conflict because living together, even with your family, brings up way more arguments and problems that wouldn’t be there if you lived elsewhere. you’ll notice you don’t have as many fights with your friends as you do with the people you live with, or you have different ones. it may be unfair because that’s where you’re supposed to be allowed to live, and you may wish things were different, in the same. but i wish things were different while knowing it’s for the best taht i left.

I'm sorry you are going through this. I may not know you but I want you to know that you are important and loved even on the days when you don't feel it. We are here for you!