glutensuckz

269d

I struggle with ptsd caused by a very abusive relationship a few years ago. Occasionally on very bad days I have the overwhelming urge to stalk my abuser on social media. I have set up many blocks to stop myself like blocking their account and their family’s accounts, but I still find a way. Is this a form of self h@rm? Does anyone have suggestions on how to stop the urge?

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

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  • arthoe99

    269d

    I have this same issue!!! And then after I do the investigation I spiral thinking that they can see that I'm looking them up. I also worry that this urge means the person still had power

  • arthoe99

    269d

    Usually having someone to report to and keep me accountable about it (especially if I freak out)

  • missmallow

    269d

    You’re not alone. I do the same thing. It’s almost like I hope they’re not doing good because of what they did to me. I don’t think it’s self harm but I do think (like the other person stated above) telling someone you trust when you’re wanting to look

  • feellicks

    269d

    it's self sabotage. I find it really hard to keep myself from doing it sometimes too but I just try to ask myself what would change? all that's going to happen is I will make myself upset. so I go and talk to people about it. write down every horrible thing that person did to me. share it with other people who were also in abusive relationships.. I find that to be more satisfying in the end

  • Beckaroni

    265d

    I do that too, but I do it to check they are nowhere around me. Like I do background checks on them. I keep hoping they've been arrested

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