Struggling to Find a Point in Recovery

Well, for me I found a point in the people around me. Mostly my husband. Like if I couldn’t find it in me to do it for me then I could do it for him. Because he matters more to me than I do - if that makes sense? Also being at my rock bottom - I’ve had AN for nearly 12 years - really scared me. I realized I could lose everything; my mobility, my loved ones, my creativity, and eventually my life. Plus, it physically felt like shit. Mentally I was turned off, which was the good part, but physically existing hurt. It hurt to breathe and stand and sleep and sit. Ugh, it’s such shit. So, I recommend trying to find something outside yourself to push you through when you don’t feel worth it for yourself. And look into treatment at a place you feel aligns with your values (that made a big difference for me). Also, get off social media. Instagram especially - it just feeds the ED. I wish you the best. Stay strong

I definitely understand what you are talking about. The way to recovery is tough. It's easier for me to appreciate small successes along the way. Every meal that I can finish or each pound I have gained is an important point in my way that I am happy to achieve.