styx

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tw// suicidal thoughts
ive been having suicidal thoughts on and off since i was 12 and a lot of other scary crap that goes on inside my head that ive never told anyone about. ive talked about my thoughts like in general, enough to be diagnosed with depression and severe anxiety, but ive never been able to bring myself to actually tell anyone about a lot of my other worse thoughts. even with my therapists i consistently lie about almost everything and i refuse to let them know when somethings actually bothering me. i dont know whats wrong with me, like if its just my pride or what but ive pretty much had to deal with everything alone. a lot of the time i refuse to even admit that i have depression when people try to talk to me about it and i remain adamant that im perfectly fine. i dont know whats wrong with me or why i cant open up to anyone but its really frustrating. i dont think this is normal but does anyone else experience this or know what to do about it.

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  • Blulamb

    293d

    I also deal with a lot of intrustive thoughts so I understand, I feel the same way. I started only recently talking to people about it, that I trust. I mean online friends is a good way to tell other people what your feelings without giving away too much about yourswld

  • AyoGG

    293d

    I've held back alot from therapists before too, and dealing with things alone is one of my biggest crutches. Just because I have been doesn't mean I have to. It's OK. We're here for you! DM me whenever if you ever want to get into it.

  • AyoGG

    293d

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