Feeling Like a Child in My Own Home

im anxious for when my parents come home. my ma texted me saying "well have a sit down talk some things are going to change". and right now I'm planning what could happen and what they'll say and my reasonings. recently I've been treating them how they treat me, which isn't great, I've had talks with them and they don't care about my feelings/wellbeing. but now that I treat them how they treat me their angry and are now going to talk to me. my dad has anger issues in which he can't control, my ma makes me feel bad about myself/everything I do/say/feel. even when I don't say something mean (which I NEVER say anything with the intention to cause harm) they take it personally and blow up on me instead of talking it out and I'm tired of not being listened to because I hear them all the time. I've been trying my hardest to be a good kid, I'm grearful for everything, I just wish they were there for me emotionally and them not doing that (ever since I was little) I now deal with mental illnesses and they just trigger them almost constantly, like my dad acts like the "aLpHa" and thinks he's better than me when I explain were equals and give good reasons to treat me with respect he gets angry and storms out then we don't talk for days on end and my ma makes me feel guilty or it's vise versa my ma does something cruddy to me (name calling, making fun of me) and then I rebudle saying how she's not acting right and being rude she starts crying and complaining and my dad makes me feel bad, like I'm never good enough! they don't care about me they care about having this weird control and it's worsening my anxiety because I know they won't listen, they don't care

this may be really sensitive to some viewers .... that being said : my family is really shitty. my husband and two grown children do absolutely nothing around the house. they must think that Because I'm home on disability, I have all the time in the world to do all of the dishes, and cooking - I've mostly stopped doing the cleaning except for the bare necessities and shits been piling up for years. my husband is on disability too, and he thinks he's in a permanent vacation. meanwhile I am busting my ass just to get the basics done. on top of that, they are mean, shitty people. they all three have mental health problems that they don't properly treat at the moment. I am so sick of their shit. I just needed to vent. maybe I should get in bed for a month, and claim I need a home health aide. one that's strictly there to care for ME!!!

Parents contacting my therapist without my consent