CatKhan

212d

I had an emotional outburst that almost cost me my relationship with my boyfriend. I misunderstood something and got really upset.

I thought he told me to essentially "shut up" while at one of his family's get together's. I immediately got really upset and removed myself from any further conversation. partially because I was holding back tears. he says I should be myself around his family but then there are rules and I feel so nervous. so when I thought he told me to shut up all of these feelings came up at once. and I never mean to get like that. I appreciate being invited and up until that one second everything was fine.

I couldn't control my emotions at all and I feel like a failure.

I'm not on medication and I'm still learning about ADHD symptoms. I was diagnosed as a kid but was raised to think it wasn't real.

so I've never been medicated. I don't have insurance either so I'm unsure if I can afford it. and I'm still trying to figure out if it's worth being on medication. but I care about my relationships and I can't be freaking out, even if it's only once in a while...ideally it should be never.

any tips?

Attention-Deficit Disorder

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  • RhetoricalYou

    211d

    That sounds like a really difficult situation. I'm so sorry about your lack of insurance, I can imagine that makes the decision extra difficult. Here are a few suggestions that will hopefully be helpful. One, I think it is really wise to remove yourself from a situation if you feel a blow up of emotions starting to happen. If you're in public, even just excusing yourself to go to the bathroom can give you some of the space you need to feel your emotions and let them flow through you. For me personally, my feelings tend to come on very strong and very fast, but I also calm down soon after, almost like it never happened. So if I can remove myself when I'm at my worst, I can avoid lashing out and hurting others. Remember that the worst you are feeling in the moment won't last forever. Two, once your feelings do subside, try and come back and explain how you were feeling to your boyfriend. If you explain why you got upset and what you're nervous about, that can help him understand why you react the way you do and will hopefully avoid the two of you hurting each other in the future. If he is aware of your condition and you help explain it to him, he will better be able to help you get through those difficult emotions Finally, try to keep some small physical object you can squeeze or play with when you're getting stressed, especially if you know you're going to be in a difficult situation like a family gathering. Even something simple like a smooth rock in your purse or your pocket you can rub with your fingers or squeeze very very hard when a sudden wave of emotion comes on. In a emergency if you don't have anything, you can squeeze your hand very hard, dig your fingers into your palm, and take three deep breaths in and out. So, my small advice is try to remove yourself in the moment, make sure to explain your feelings to your boyfriend, and use small objects and deep breathing to catch yourself in the moment. These are just some very basic ideas, but hopefully they will be helpful. If you have any more specific or long-term questions, feel free to message me directly. I will also say, for me personally, being medicated has definitely been worth it for me. But I hope you'll be able to find the help you need even if being medicated isn't an option for you right now. Best of luck friend

  • Sunshineseeker90

    209d

    If he didn't tell you to shut up, what did he say?

    • CatKhan

      209d

      he said "not your business"

      • Sunshineseeker90

        209d

        That is extremely rude. I would be upset too. He could have said, "It doesn't matter." Or "It's ok." To change the topic.

    • Sunshineseeker90

      209d

      What kind of rules does his family have?

      • CatKhan

        209d

        the rules are they hate shy people. So I can't be that. They are churchy so I gotta be good. And they are Vietnamese so I don't know where the line is between culture weird and regular weird.

  • not_b00bs

    209d

    sounds like you were experiencing "rejection sensitivity." do some research on it so you understand what it is, and explain it to your boyfriend. both of you deserve an explanation for the conflict. if anyone tries to tell you you're making excuses, they are wrong. an explanation is different from an excuse. im sure your bf will understand <3

  • Bridgette

    208d

    Wow that is messed up . I honestly if your bf loves you. I say screw his family like they gotta understand that you can't just have rules. Also you could see a doctor for medication. Idk where your from but look into free clinics .mental health is a big deal so they do have places for people to go get help.

  • Bridgette

    208d

    Be you if you need to remove yourself from a situation for your mental health you do so ! ❤️

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