Dealing with Chronic Pain and Anxiety: My Story

Hello I’m Alexander , I’m a painter at 19 year olds a house and commercial painter . And I do have pain in my back chronically upper and lower I try pain killer to help they help sometimes like oxy . And codeine pills and orally drink . I also suffer from anxiety daily, clammy hands ,racing thoughts , nervousness of nothing serious afraid of future. I feel I’m a failure a lot and I’m ugly. I need help getting friends I love to be loving and compassionate and and I care about your thoughts and others . I have deep empathy for others and there pain and how they went through things . Everyone goes through something now body is perfect . No matter what I’m going through I think of family is everything even if they aren’t blood. Nothing lasts forever . I wanna stay solid and woke and take advantage of opportunity’s . I need leg surgery soon from a ski accident they are taking out my Meniscus. I have been in chronic knee pain since March of 2021 . I can barley do anything active and it takes a toll on my life and makes me so depressed. And pain killers help me a lot with the pain but I know nothing lasts forever ..I just wanna be happy.