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Afterlife_Collective

453d

Happy new year! is it? is it a "happy new year?" I don't even want to be here. I don't want to be alive I'm so tired... I don't think anyone truly will ever understand how exhausted I am, sharing a body with 6 other people sucks. My memory is shit I don't even remember if I washed my hands when I'm standing right in front of the sink after I alredy washed them. Mom's been being nice to us again I don't belive her it's all an act I'll fuck up again and she'll hurt us again... I told my uncle that she's being physically abusive and slammed a door into our shoulder a few times and he just said I needed to forgive her because shes my mom... I don't know how much longer I can do this... but if I tell my therapist she'll just reccomend I go to the mental hospital.. guess what they don't do shit! they don't help! I wanna leave.... go be with my girlfriend or boyfriend and live with them in some other state with fun things to do and never have to worry about my family ever again.

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    • cheese.wedge

      453d

      @Afterlife_Collective that's perfectly fine. Can you use your therapy to try improve personal hygiene? Obviously, it's nothing to feel shame about its completely understandable but I find there's a positive feedback loop 'I took care of myself so I have motivation so I can continue to take care of myself' maybe this will be a good first step to freedom?

    • cheese.wedge

      453d

      I'm so sorry you're going through that and you're exhausted and communication isn't good. That's really tough. Is there anyone else you can talk to about your mum? You need to tell someone and I don't necessarily think telling your therapist will lead to a hospital but, forgive my ignorance here I've never been sectioned, at least you'd be away from her. You shouldn't feel like you have to walk around on eggshells around anyone, especially not primary caregivers like parents. Have you got a job? Maybe you can start to save money to leave and get a couple more hours a week away from her.

      • Afterlife_Collective

        453d

        @cheese.wedge I've told everyone I can about my mother even the police, I've been trying to get a job but atm I can barely take care of our body I shower once a week at best and brush my teeth maybe once a month. I know a job would get me away from her and get me money but I simply do not have an ounce of motivation.

        • cheese.wedge

          453d

          @Afterlife_Collective that's perfectly fine. Can you use your therapy to try improve personal hygiene? Obviously, it's nothing to feel shame about its completely understandable but I find there's a positive feedback loop 'I took care of myself so I have motivation so I can continue to take care of myself' maybe this will be a good first step to freedom?

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