Struggling with Mental Health and Family Support

So I just need to vent and I'm too insecure to vent on other apps like this one. I am at such a low theirs a lot in my personal life going on and it get a little too specific and I don't want to take the chance that my sibling or someone I know may connect the dots. but I feel miserable and my mom does this thing where she says she wants to help and then doesn't. She makes it worse and tells me I'm a drama queen and throwing a pity party. How I need to look positively. But when I feel this low that's very hard. She got into with me last night and Yes I was being not so nice too but she brought up my mental health. She said she could tell I wasn't taking pills anymore. That hurt and she knew it would. I just feel so low about life. I even feel like I'm a bad partner towards my bf because of his current situation. It feels like my whole life is slowly but surely crumbling apart. I told my bf what my mom said and he literally replied" I don't know what to say" Like valid I get it. But I think in her head she has good intentions but chooses to Ignore my mental illness. I cannot turn it off thats not how brains work. I feel so miserable. This is one of our most ugly conversations and I just can't shake some of her words.