Rejected and Tired of Life: Seeking a Friend

my name is Chris Syk6 is jus an old back yard wrestling name I went bye way back in the day I liked it an kinda stuck so more about me well I consider myself an outcast to the world around me the more I try an fit in the more I ether get rejected or played ghosted beat up ran over an I get this from everybody family,freinds,gfs,society jus tired of life in general wish I had a freind first lets let time decide if we belong togather ima Southern Gentleman born in the 80s raised in the 90s ima take life how it go type of guy I played football done wrestling tried karate ima social drinker 420 freindly if not it's coo cuz I only smoke to numb the pain an go too sleep ima overthinker an a overachiever when I'm mad I usaly go for walks I'm 5"9 208 lbs blonde hair blue eyes red beard kinda chubby who jus likes to chill an hang out an smoke an be with my girl an watch horror movies an eat pizza real chill