Feeling Alone in a Crowd of Friends

I feel exactly the same way. There are people who I've been there for to help escape abusers, dangerous situations, and have even helped to find housing. But when I'm ,at times, unable to perform everyday tasks "you're not trying hard enough" or "I'm tired of having to help you". It especially sucks when, not only have I been helping them for 10-23+years, but their choices are the whole reason for my condition in the first place. Just keep knowing that you are VERY strong and VERY kind, and ABSOLUTELY deserving of people who are there for your needs too. It may be hard not to help, but pull back some of what you for those who don't return the same effort. Someday we'll find people who support up like we support them 🤗💕

First off, I really suggest you try therapy. It has been really helpful in my own case. Not only will they be your rock, they can help you navigate this frustration you have towards loved ones (which is completely valid). Secondly, are your friends/family making you feel this way or is this something that you feel ab yourself? This can be a key difference in what you decide to do