Flashbacks and Memories: Can't Escape the Past

trigger warn for: abuse, suicide ideation I'm stuck in old memories. my brother, my mother, my father, my sister. they flash before like some sort of sick slideshow. I'm taking a bath, trying to relax and all I can think about is having my hair grabbed and pushed into the side of the car door. thinking of being forced to drive to another ABC store. thinking of crying, terrified, at 14 and being told I need to be the parent to my own mom. thinking about calling my sister and begging her to pick me up because I can't handle being hurt anymore. I can't handle this. my psych says there's no medication for what this is. that therapy will help. I've been in therapy off and on for 7 years. they won't go away. I just want it all to stop I just want it all to stop I just want it all to stop I know what can make it stop