Atusin

166d

trigger warn for: abuse, suicide ideation

I'm stuck in old memories. my brother, my mother, my father, my sister. they flash before like some sort of sick slideshow. I'm taking a bath, trying to relax and all I can think about is having my hair grabbed and pushed into the side of the car door. thinking of being forced to drive to another ABC store. thinking of crying, terrified, at 14 and being told I need to be the parent to my own mom. thinking about calling my sister and begging her to pick me up because I can't handle being hurt anymore.
I can't handle this. my psych says there's no medication for what this is. that therapy will help. I've been in therapy off and on for 7 years. they won't go away. I just want it all to stop I just want it all to stop I just want it all to stop I know what can make it stop

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

Anxiety (Including GAD)

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  • Tanahtso

    166d

    Hi Atusin, I’ve been through my own trauma and is suicidal because of it. I suffer flashbacks, sensory overload, and panic attacks often. I can never claim to fully understand how you feel but I would like to help by hearing you out more and offering my own thoughts. If you need someone to talk to, Please don’t hesitate to message me. No matter how alone you feel, just know that you’re not. Wishing you the best 🫂💜

    • Atusin

      166d

      thank you. I just don't know how I'm going to go on with my future while I'm constantly stuck reliving my past

      • Tanahtso

        166d

        I understand that part. Since I’ve been having flashbacks. I feel like when those memories and thoughts are intense, you have to tell yourself that it’s temporary. Force yourself to believe it even if you don’t right now. Unfortunately, I’m unable to offer you the most positive coping advices because truthfully I’m still struggling a lot. All I know is that having more patience for myself helps more or less. Repeating this in my mind, sometimes I even mutter “this is temporary” or “I’ll be fine” 🙏 not sure if it’s the healthiest 😭

  • MaddieHatter19

    166d

    I would honestly try finding another psychiatrist, and getting a second opinion. If you've done therapy for 7 years and it isn't working, it might be time to try something new, or adding an extra element to that therapy service. Sometimes therapy alone just isn't enough. Hang in there, this too shall pass.

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