Struggling to Care About College

Yea unfortunately that’s what depression does to people, when you feel like you should care but you just, don’t feel that way. And yea antidepressants often help with some symptoms but not with others or even make some worse. It’s a mixed bag. Sometimes people just have to keep trying until they find one that’s a net positive enough. I don’t have much advice for your situation, but don’t feel guilty for not caring. Your brain is just not giving you the ability right now. It’s not the end of the world if you just can’t do college now, so if dropping out is the right thing that’s ok. I would definitely try a different med some time if you feel ready. Remember antidepressants can take such a long time to actually work and reach full affect (4-6 months). Good thing you weaned yourself off successfully though. Best of luck!

Am in school to but do 2 a week and the rest of the time I got online classes

I would stick with it even just purely for the fact that you have a 4 year scholarship. Your school has to have some kind of resource for you to take advantage of. I say sign up and take time to figure out what their counseling program is like and boom an appointment. For most places it is free cause your tuition pays for it. I was in the same boat as you but I finally signed up and just finished my.firat week of classes. It's hard trust me but it is better than nothing.