Feeling Low and Searching for an Escape

i’m not sure why today is different from any other day but i feel so low about everything, i hate the way i look and i don’t recognize who i’m staring at in the mirror, i feel empty and everything feels pointless and i have this pit in my stomach that i can’t pin point, nothing is making me happy and i just feel gross for some reason, i took my meds today and i’ve eaten and i’ve done everything i’m supposed to but i’ve gotten nothing but plummeting sadness, i never usually cry over stuff like this but i’ve been laying in my bed in tears and i can’t figure any of it out and i don’t remember last time i felt this low and i’ve reached out to people to talk about it but nothing is helping, i feel like i want to go to sleep and not wake up for a few weeks but i don’t want to die, i just can’t handle any of this right now, i want an escape and i don’t have one.