Gender Dysphoria and Euphoria: What's Your Experience?

It's weirdly specific, but someone clocked me at a social event once because I had "feminine hands" (?) and every once in a while I look at my hands and feel weirdly insecure. Oddly enough tho I've been working a much more manual job recently and my hands have gotten a lot rougher and stronger and I get kind of giddy when I feel the callouses now. It's gone 180 in my brain haha. Also I used to be embarrassed when I lived as a girl because I have really broad shoulders but I really like it now. I think I always wanted to be proud of it but never allowed myself to feel the joy

I'm afab but don't identity as f or m, which makes being fat with large boobs a hassle, especially since i still enjoy wearing dresses. I hate having cleavage and having to fork over lots of money for bras that fit