Struggling as a Full-Time Caregiver

I have also been a caretaker for both of my parents. I still take on that roll briefly at times as my dad is disabled from a 2015 stroke and my mom has progressed Parkinson's disease that began after cancer treatments in 2013. It is so hard some days and my relationship with my parents (especially my mom) has always been rocky. It is also so hard for me to see my parents age and deteriorate as time goes on. I don't know how to handle it some days and I feel so alone in it. Some days, I just can't get myself to interact with them or I avoid going to their house because of my emotions and it makes me feel like a failure of a daughter and caretaker. Anyway, my mom is also quite . . . Overbearing at times and wants to know everything about me and my day and constantly judges me for my choices despite being 30 as well. It is frustrating and I know it will only get worse as her disease and age progress. You certainly aren't alone and feel free to DM me anytime you need an ear 😊.

I’m 46 I have been my mothers caregiver for over a year now full time she has stage 4 lung cancer I do understand what you mean I love my mother dearly but it has always been about her all my life I had to accommodate everything around her even when my kids was young they are grown now but she always thought she had to be first if I ever said no then she would threaten to call the cops on me even thou I wasn’t doing anything she always had that fear in me she is narcissistic I have always lived in fear she does listen to me some now cause I care for her 24/7 but I understand I always rush to take my showers also I would love to have one day to myself but I can’t we have gotten closer and she hasn’t been as bad on controlling since she has been sick almost lost her march 30 she almost coded after chemo like couple days after her blood dropped severely low and she became sepsis she didn’t know me for a few days after but she is up walking again finally and knows everybody but is very forgetful so find myself repeating myself all the time . Know you are not alone hun and it is hard I have been a caregiver to my mamaw for 3 years from 20-23 she had cancer and passed and I have my son then and he was a toddler . Just know if you ever need to vent feel free I know how lonely it can get . 🙏 🤗 💕