Frustrated with Recurring Seizure-like Symptoms

So I was diagnosed with conversion disorder 8ish years ago. I have started having a reoccurrence of my seizure like symptoms (PNES). I’m honestly really frustrated. I have tried many medications and therapies including ketamine infusions (last had them in the beginning of January and started having these issues again a few weeks ago). I am in weekly therapy, I’m doing everything I’m ‘supposed to’ and yet, here I am. I don’t know what to do anymore. This is affecting my life functions and not allowing me to be me. I can’t work due to liability and I’m so frustrated.