Struggling with My Transgender Transition

Dude.. I feel like that too. I’ll look in the mirror and see what I see and just feel almost enraged. Like who the heck is staring back at me.. i look nothing like how I feel inside. And sometimes it’ll feel like even if i succeed in taking my testosterone weekly and working out and eating right and getting my surgeries.. ill still never be the man i am inside. But hearing another trans bro worrying about the same things helps me realize.. regardless of you stupid fricken parents.. we’re both just as much of a man as anybody else. We just gotta make sure to do things that brings out that masculine feeling inside us. Regardless of what others think or what that dumb voice in the corner of our brain tells us. Even just using male shampoo or cologne and binding makes me feel so much better. Its easier said than done, but if you need somebody to validate your absolute MANLINESS I’m here for you

I don't have any real advice for you other than telling you that you are not alone, and one day you will be able to move out of your parents' house. And the toxic environment could very well be the reason you don't feel happy with the changes. And while 4 months is a good milestone, it isn't a lot of time in the long run. You've only just begun. Hold on to that. You are not alone. There are people here who understand and care about you. Trans people of all different backgrounds spread all across the world, inhabiting every nook of the internet. You are not alone. Message me if you want to talk. ❤️