Struggling with Life and Death

I feel like this too. Feels like a battle to keep yourself strong everyday. You could get yourself to the point of feeling entirely happy and satisfied with life, for it to sudden hit rock bottom again. I often think about dying and how I wouldn't have to put up with these feelings anymore but the thought of death is terrifying. I'm fed up of waiting for things to get better or for something to happen in my life that makes me feel as if its worth living.