Struggling with Suicidal Thoughts and Work

You only have to be a little bit stronger than today's issue. Baby steps sweet pea. I know it feels like the weight of the world on you. Have you tried creating something to visually tackle some of your concerns? I believe you've seen I have my fair share of topics of concern for myself. For me, sometimes just weighting down all the things I want to change helps out things in perspective. Prioritize the list and make small changes to see how it helps ease the following days. If I need to make more adjustments I will. I can only control what I can control. And you can to. For me it took me getting pissed off, disappointed in myself, shame, insecurities and many other negative thoughts to realize I've been bringing myself down. My Daddy always told me that the one true person in life you can count on is yourself. He's right. I was there advocating for myself when I stood up to my 21 year marriage and said NO MORE. When I finally received the divorce papers.... I felt so proud. I thought I had to stay with him because I want financially strong enough to make it. But my dignity and desire to show my children independence and strength... Resolve! Resolve - firm determination to do something. Something similar to a fire or spark within that just ignites... I found my passion. I'd rather be financially strapped than compromise my integrity, break my spirit, and/or allow my kids to continue to see me subjected to an unhealthy relationship. Dig deep sweet pea, find your spark... It's there. It may be dim and need you to advocate and nurture it back to health. Baby steps.