Please try to be gentle with yourself. The kind of healing and self-improvement it sounds like you need in your life can't be rushed. 🤗 I feel the same way a lot and keep coming back to the Latin phrase "Semper and Meliora", meaning "Always Towards Better Things". I personally feel a drive to always improve, to have emotional control, to be patient and kind and compassionate and mindful. 💕 But you'll hurt yourself if you push yourself to hard. Remember, if you push yourself until it causes you pain it's no longer your best at that point. 🤗

You're not alone. I feel that I could have written exactly this ❤️ I am in therapy currently and trying to be more mindful about my own needs... am I tired? Hungry? Lonely? Do I feel loved? Do I feel safe? I know that having a deficit in any of these areas contributes greatly to how I relate to the people and environments around me. It's hard to have compassion for ourselves, but checking in with our physical needs is a great place to start. And ask those we trust when we need help ❣

I have been feeling that exact same way lately. I just try to tell myself that better days are coming. My depression has always been back and forth. Some days I'm ok and other days I feel super low. I'm just always searching for things that make me happy, even if they are small.