This is so hard anymore like it's unbelievable. I've been reflecting a lot lately, and sadly, I just found out that a lot of my issues have to do with me, and how I've been acting like a person. I'm honestly so pissed off at myself.. I don't even know what to say anymore. I'm just so embarrassed because this is not who I want to be. I just keep slipping up and falling down... No matter what I do, I make things worse even if I try to resolve issues. I don't know what to do anymore... I've also noticed I've closed myself off from people again. I am literally so tired of it. Why do I want to hide all the time? Why am I acting like a total jerk? there's so many questions but I'll never see the answer to them... I've become numb again and everything feels so far away even though I am trying to get back up and get close again. I just can't seem to reach my goals anymore. I am so lost, confused, and hopeless. I am so hopeless for my future and my present right now. I thought supressing my feelings was the right thing to do.. there's so many things I thought I was doing right but... I was wrong. so very wrong. I don't even know what I'm doing with my life anymore. Or even know who I am. I'm so lost anymore.


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  • Hiraeth


    Please try to be gentle with yourself. The kind of healing and self-improvement it sounds like you need in your life can't be rushed. 🤗 I feel the same way a lot and keep coming back to the Latin phrase "Semper and Meliora", meaning "Always Towards Better Things". I personally feel a drive to always improve, to have emotional control, to be patient and kind and compassionate and mindful. 💕 But you'll hurt yourself if you push yourself to hard. Remember, if you push yourself until it causes you pain it's no longer your best at that point. 🤗

  • MoonSpeck


    You're not alone. I feel that I could have written exactly this ❤️ I am in therapy currently and trying to be more mindful about my own needs... am I tired? Hungry? Lonely? Do I feel loved? Do I feel safe? I know that having a deficit in any of these areas contributes greatly to how I relate to the people and environments around me. It's hard to have compassion for ourselves, but checking in with our physical needs is a great place to start. And ask those we trust when we need help ❣

  • LunaStarr


    I have been feeling that exact same way lately. I just try to tell myself that better days are coming. My depression has always been back and forth. Some days I'm ok and other days I feel super low. I'm just always searching for things that make me happy, even if they are small.

  • KatieKitKat


    I feel the same way. I'm actually trying to change several habits of mine & when I mess up I just get so frustrated & angry at myself & beat myself up. But then I started praying for patience with myself & changing my habits. It's a process & some habits any of us have are probably 10+ years old so give yourself a break

    • Latino


      put your concerns on jehov and I’m sure he will response all your questions Salms 55:23 read it please

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