Things are looking up!

@unicorn thank you, yes I totally agree and ik for myself personally that I get stuck with tunnel vision or in a rabbit hole and I begin to seek out worst case scenarios. I think that's the comfort of mental illness --- its what we know and its easier to exist in that state. We all deserve to find ourselves in a state where we know and accept that things are okay and have the potential to get even better. Its just so hard to recognize that and begin to find comfort and/or peace in it. Sorry for the tangent! I always get very emotional when I respond to comments haha

@sunflower813 thank you so much! You deserve all of the good things too and soon you will be showering in that abundance. I completely understand because the past year has been physically and emotionally taxing on me too. But we made it to 2023! Why stop now? We are in this together 🥰

@poodlelover28 hi!!! Please look at my response above as well because I also had you in mind while I typed that. I know exactly what you mean and how you will. I am also very very hard on myself. To be honest, I had big big dreams and expectations I couldn't reach and it took me a year to accept that it wasn't a realistic goal for me and thats okay. No one was more disappointed in me than me and funny enough, thats all it was. This may not seem relevant, but my point in sharing is that no one else is ashamed or uncomfortable or disappointed in you for where you are in your journey. Those that are are simply projecting. Its true because you are in the right place and ik its so hard to see how any of this pain could possibly bring you happiness and comfort. It will and honestly, there's a good chance you won't realize it for a bit. I know I didn't, but everyone's different. Your journey does not end here and I truly believe you have the strength to push through all of this, whatever it may be and become for you, and become the version of yourself you are proud of and do the things that make you happy and proud. It takes time. I've had so many serious lows where I saw no reason to keep going, but when I kept going and working on myself, it all paid off. Maybe not tangibly but it felt a peace. Its not always peaceful but thats just because we're in the eye of the storm before we head into our next journey and guess what? We change peoples lives. We are meaningful. YOU are meaningful, important and appreciated for your strengths and "flaws." Its not easy. I don't guarantee that it ever will be, but I swear to you that it gets better and eventually it makes sense too. Much love <3