Dealing with Impostor Syndrome in Mental Health

I struggle with this a lot, especially since I’m physically healed and a lot of people have the same physical injuries, but never talk about how or if they have any mental issues with it. I know my therapist would tell me about how it doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen, but it’s so hard sometimes. I’m still struggling with it, especially when people around me get frustrated with my reactions because they don’t understand.

I was just dealing with this this week. I’m always worried that my problems are fake or I’m making it. One thing I said to myself that was bad was “my neurological and psychological problems disqualify me to report on my neurological and psychological problems.” It was such a terrible thought but I then combated it with “well this is my perspection, messed up, real not real or wrong doesn’t matter. The fact of the matter is my reality is based on what it is I perceive. The reality I have is one of pain which requires help so it doesn’t matter if the pain to someone else seems dramatized or fake. Medicine is all about treating peoples individual and personal realities. Even if somehow miraculously determined that my pain is dramatized or in my head, that is still going to require help and treatment.” The other thing as well that has helped is writing down exactly what you feel is when it happens and it’s triggers. Doing this has helped me learn that my issues are real. I use an app called pain scale to do the enteries. I hope some of that thought process helps.

but then i think even if i think someone else will think it’s dumb it wasn’t to ME it hurt ME

i always feel like this - i be sitting there thinking maybe it’s wasn’t actually that bad

My partner has said something that triggered me , he got heated when I told him I wasn’t feeling well and his response was “ you never feel well “ this made me spiral and I locked myself up mentally . I started thinking , is it all in my head . But it’s hard to breath and some times I feel dizzy and light headed . I know deep down it’s not and I went off and told him “ your right I won’t always be 100 % who knows if I’ll ever be 100% but I do my best and push myself , so take me or leave “ that made him think twice . He doesn’t know what epilepsy or ptsd is like . Or the struggles that come with it .

It was like that in the beginning for me and then I realized I would never fake feeling that bad.. since then, I have more self compassion