Struggling with BPD and Friendships

I understand but maybe one friend does genuinely care because I have a best friend and she's always nice and understands what I'm going through and the rest don't so I just disconnect myself from them. That's why I don't have as many friends anymore. My emotions are unstable.

I think I'm at the point of not reaching out anymore and have pushed everyone away. I'm trying to stop it but it's really hard when it feels like no one cares anyways

Many friends are only fair-weather friends. Or smoking buddies, when push comes to shove I’ve found I’m happy with only a few people I can be authentic around and even then I can’t only be stormy weather.

been struggling with that a lot myself, too. having to keep my distance because if i get too attached to anyone i become a maniac and don't want to burden anyone with that. yet i desire connections... i don't really know what the solution is.

I felt this so hard omg it's so true . It would make life easier but also not becuase abondamment issues and that

do you think it would be worth it to make friends who also have BPD? my boyfriend and I both have BPD and we understand each other - communication feels natural

Being a lil jealous is nothing to be ashamed of, it's all about how u act in the situation. Everyone gets jealous every now n again that's normal. Trust me u want to keep them even though it seems hard, I was the same n pushed everyone away after I realized I had no one everything became a lot harder n I tried taking my own life.

i get this, i always end up detaching myself away from them cause i feel like they don't understand me and i feel isolated around them

I understand how you feel. Any "friends" I have are online friends. I feel it's easier for people to understand me through text rather than face to face as I have time to think about my responses and control whatever emotion or irrational thought may come up.