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Please help me. Things are getting rough. I don't know what to do. About 2 months ago I fell into a bad depressive episode that I managed to cope with until I lost my job. I was really close with everyone at work, particularly the father of the family that owned the place. For context, I tend to cling very heavily to strong father figures so he meant a lot to me and still does. Since I've stopped working it feels as though everything is starting to follow this downward trend. I got another job the weekend after only to eventually have to leave it because I hadn't had my first day after having been hired 2 weeks prior along with other issues with money and things they hadn't told me I'd be doing (that I was not comfortable/qualified to do) Since then I've had no luck with finding any form of even ACKNOWLEDGEMENT from potential employers. About a week ago I learned that my older brother was going to be moving a few states away by the end of the month. I'm not ready for that. I knew he was going to be moving but not so soon. These are only the main events. I'm very tired, I haven't slept well in weeks. I feel like I'm ready to sleep forever. But I can't. I can't leave anyone behind. I can't hear the thought of my family finding me and them having to tell my S/O. It's getting harder and harder to fight. My issue is that I have no way to cope. I can't bounce back. I feel like I've hit my mental rock bottom. The tiniest inconvenience sends me into a spiraling sobbing mess. I can't make decisions for myself. I can't think clearly. I had to give up a fantastic job opportunity because I couldn't even do the stupid math test due to how thick my brain fog is. And since that struggle was a bit stressful, I broke down and immediately left. I didn't even do the test. I have no interest in anything other than a few specific people. I used to love to paint, draw, sculpt, sew, craft and when I wasn't inside I loved going to parks and going on drives and just enjoying things. Now it's nothing. I never get the urge to pick up any hobby. I never get the rush of happiness and giddiness of a new idea or thought. there is no thought. not much anyway. Honestly I want to apologize for such a long post. I haven't been able to get in touch with my therapist. Also, apologies for any confusing wording of paragraphs. as we speak I'm in a mixed episode and I just need someone out there to please tell me-- what do you do when you have nothing inside to push you to move forward while everything in life is driving over you and crushing you because they're going so fast? What do you do when the hugs from your family are hollow for you? When you feel guilty for even breathing too loud near someone who you rationally know loves you unconditionally but for some reason you think they hate you? I don't know anything anymore. especially who I am. I'm tired.
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@Officialishness Thank you, I really needed to read this and I appreciate your advice more than I can express right now đ I will try my best to keep pushing forward.
Honestly I can really relate to this right now. Finding new jobs can be so so disheartening, and along with the other events mixed with depression it just makes you feel hopeless. It can get harder and harder to fight every day and can feel so bad when people say âjust keep fightingâ when you really just want to give up.. it feels terrible. My only real advice is this; - take time to breathe, you donât need to do anything, just find some time to take a few deep breaths. I put on instrumental music often to keep some bad thoughts away usually or a TV show for background noise - stick to your meds, it can feel like too much to get up and take them, or feel like they donât work, but itâs important to stay on them especially at times like this - try talk to your family; especially your brother, your S/O, or even those you trust. Talk about your concerns, banter about something you are interested in, but overall just talk to them. Remember they love and care about you, and will help support you when you ask for their help. - talk to your doctors honestly. Full honesty, tell them you think you need help stabilizing. If you are currently against going to a hospital, then mention you would like to try doing therapy more often, or upping your medication till you stabilize a bit , or even trying other treatment methods. They want to help you, and they can if you are honestly with them. (Try to not worry about âconsequencesâ of being honest. Nothing is more important than feeling better - you DESERVE to feel better and that is priority. You will never get in trouble for being honest and trying to feel better) - Accept that if all else fails that voluntary hospitalization may be the best option temporarily. If you ever get in the moment and believe you may harm yourself and feel you canât tell anyone, drive straight to the hospital. These stresses will pass eventually, and itâs important that youâre able to see that through. Hospitals can provide the round the clock care you need along with on site doctors. I apologize for the length but if you read this far then I hope you know you deserve to feel better. Never feel guilty or ashamed for seeking help. Being honest with others, like your treatment team, can feel awkward and scary but remember thatâs why they are there - to help you. No one will be mad at you for asking for help đ
@StarryKit of course. As I said before, never be afraid to ask for help - people are willing to support you when you need it! I wish you all the best and donât hesitate to shoot a message if you need any help
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