im also trying to figure this out. the same thing happens to me with reading (carrying a book with me everywhere doesnt do shit). i cant offer advice, but i can hopefully help you feel a little less alone. they say nothing lasts forever — wishing the best for both of us.

I've been struggling with the feeling of loneliness too! It's like a consuming feeling! I grew up mostly being alone as my older siblings were always with their friends and I was told I was too little. So I really got into playing with my dolls and My Little Ponies.