Stories
Privacy
Download
See Alike in...
Alike App
Browser
710d
Hi all, I'm 32, soon to be 33, a dad to 2 beautiful girls, married for 10 years. Not to go super into detail, but I went through a drug induced psychosis a month before I got married, I hurt the woman I love, and came extraordinarily close to taking my own life. I ignored the way I felt for 10 years before I finally talked to someone. I always blamed the way I felt on stress, financial troubles, etc. During quarantine in 2020, I had nothing to blame and I went from pushing the negative emotions out, to pushing everything out. I feel emotionally numb most of the time now. I take Wellbutrin and Prozac, and while the medication helps, it's only for a short time. Every time my doctor increased my dose, I would feel better for a few months and then be back in the same place. That combination of meds has kept me feeling more consistent, but I'm back to the same feeling of nothing again. I have a talk therapist, it's been positive for me. I feel like she focuses more on my anxiety than the depression though. I feel like I should have gotten help a long time ago and I wouldn't be in this hole that I'm in now. It doesn't help anything that I feel like my problems are insignificant compared to people who have gone through much worse things and that I should just stop complaining. I got diagnosed with depression in October 2020. January 2021 I started having thoughts and urges of self harm. It's been quite a while since I had those thoughts since I started the talk therapy, so at least it's helping to some degree. If you made it this far, thanks for reading my out-of-order, chaotic ramblings.
3
Share
Depression
advertisement
709d
It sounds like the talk therapy is great- I'm going to give it a try later this week. There are always going to be good and bad days, but I'm working on building my social circle now by finding other people who are going through similar things (which is why I'm trying this app). What you wrote was great- I didn't think it was chaotic or out-of-order at all. Best of luck on your journey, and please keep us informed of your progress (and barriers to progress).
0
I often have to remind myself that Rome wasn't built in a day, that Everest isn't climbed in a day, that the dark ball of feelings didn't take one day. But you know the way to conquer those things is one step at a time. It can be difficult and confusing and frustrating trying to work through it all. It can take time but you can do it!
You can't compare your problems to others as we all feel, or don't, differently. Just like a pain threshold. Your feelings are valid and even if you didn't seek help sooner, you are now. Some don't. Give yourself some grace. You'll get there. May need a new med combo. Or perhaps Journaling your feelings. In any case I'm proud of you for reaching out for help.
☝ This content is generated by our users and it is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Please consult with your physician before making any medical decision
Want to chat or share? Download the Alike app now and get complete access to Alike.health's unique features.
Instantly get answers to medical questions with our AI, built from the collective wisdom of our community facing similar experiences
Write your question here...
Download Alike for the full experience
Copy Link
Copied
Discover your Alikeness™ with people who are on the same journey, gain wisdom and get emotional relief in a secure & anonymous space.
4.7 Ratings
Scan code or click below download the app
Bupropion
night sweats
paranoid
Valium
sertraline
palpitations
Anxiety (Including GAD)
Alike health
Instantly get answers to medical questions with our AI, built from the collective wisdom of our community facing similar experiences
Related Questions