Feeling Alone and Helpless

I haven't seen my best friend in almost a month and she just canceled on me last minute too so I know how you feel in that respect. I have been through a period in my life where I thought everyone hated me because I had an addiction they didn't know about, and I've realized something. First no one hates you, I promise, I've been there and I've had friends in that situation and I can tell you that no one hates you. That's just that little voice in your head telling you that, you tell that voice to shut the hell up. Also people have a whole life's worth of problems that can cause them to cancel last minute, your sister would not have made plans with you if she hated you. Secondly it takes courage and strength to ask for help, asking and receiving help does NOT make you weak, and any parent worth their salt would walk over hot coals to help their kid. As far as how to ask, just walk up to someone you trust and say "I need help, this is what I'm dealing with and I can't do it alone" if their answer is anything but supportive then walk away and look for help elsewhere, and there are so many programs and help lines that are just a Google away, if no one in your life can help you then you can message me.