It was so much better. It’s been 9 or so months into hypomania after having psychosis 9 months ago for a long time

I had my last episode from august to October of last year. It probably started earlier but really ramped up then. Public disturbances, police, arrests and a couple of 5150s came along with it. Plus an eviction and a brutal assault in a St Louis psych ward. I’m currently going through a deep deep depression, struggling to make it through each day. I hate that I’m bipolar, and hate that the medications that are provided have severe side effects that immobilize me. So I pretend that everything is fine and try to work so I won’t return to homelessness. Life rn feels pointless but I hold on to the thought that there are many others in my situation who also feel ashamed and blame themselves for their condition. I pray for courage to forgive my past and stand firm and proud. That is what I am looking for: Someone who has had similar experiences yet proudly and lovingly lives their lives as a testament to all else who struggle. Loneliness is a stealthy killer, and we don’t have to be lonely because we are not alone 💜