Dealing with Emotional Confusion in Relationships

I’ve been feeling the same way. Except I’ve always been a relationship person. Now suddenly I have aversion to relationships that I believe is related to recent traumatic events. I am super protective of my freedom and individuality lately as a result. But I’m personally fine with being single while I figure myself out with my therapist. I’m also learning that we don’t have to always be coupled up. Being on our own is just fine. Despite what family or society has taught us.

Could you have unresolved abandonment traumas? I have/had those and whenever someone would present a genuinely romantic interest I would panic and end up pushing them away because I was scared and had anxiety from the unresolved traumas. Hope this helps💞