Feeling Alone and Useless

Not selfish at all this is one of the reasons this app exists 💕 you’re definitely not overreacting, it sounds like your parent made life more hard for you and left you with some trauma or other issues. I believe you can get out of this! It’s ok to be down in the dumps though. You need a good break so try to take care and focus on yourself. Practice self compassion. It sounds like you’ve worked hard and done a good job with the circumstances you were given 🥰

I've sort of had the same situation growing up. Just that it was more of a use than rather not getting an option to do anything. If I said something they hated or didn't want to hear the truth, I'm punched or beaten until I'm physically on the ground crying or they're just tired. I wasn't able to move out like my sister did so much more pressure was on me until cops were involved but they didn't believe me. And at that point I've stopped talking and standing up for myself. This was about 2 years ago and now it's still the same

Thank you for sharing that💕 I don’t know you but I do care that you are a person that has feelings and struggling. I hear you and you aren’t selfish at all. I think you actually are doing an amazing job of trying your best to take care of yourself and give yourself what you want and need. It sounds like that wasn’t much of an option growing up and not having safety in risk taking while developing can make getting out on your own seem thrilling until a crash comes. I pray you regain your strength and give yourself compassion. You sound like a very determined person and take responsibility for trying to make the best out of your circumstances. And I value that and see that from what you wrote. It saddens me to hear you didn’t get what you needed growing up, I’ve been there, and it can really mess ppl up and it’s hard to confront something out of your control and at the same time there are certain things that are but you were growing and learning, just like you are now. You’ll regroup and gain more experience, and discover more of your true self and have the ability to make decisions that you feel happy with and over flow that and also be able to handle hard things, like this. If you need to vent more, I’m here and I care. I also am not one to ask for help so I just want to say just posting this is really courageous and I see you in that.