Can Childhood Trauma Cause Memory Loss?

. . . . Yes. After being unintentionally pulled out of a bad situation I had little glimpses of things. I didn't know if it was real. I didn't know if I wanted to know if it was real. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I didn't know why I didn't have sexual interests in people. I very slowly remembered more or different things in a blurr as time went on. . . . I looked into it. I had to. Always being afraid or doing nothing becomes detrimentally damaging to your life and well being. Once I got an affirmative that it had happened, I pushed the details away and worked on acceptance. Not in acceptance that anything that happened was okay or that thats just the way things happen, 1 in 3 woman right? NO, I accepted that yes it was something that happeneded but I accepted that it is something that happened that I can not currently control and something that will never change. I went through years long processing with oodles of everyday living copes and tricks. You have to allow yourself to move on. You may feel guilty for what happened or for not fully knowing what happened but you need to forgive yourself. I can't tell you all my best advice in one comment, just know one thing; many think that to trust is naive because you know what could happen but, they would be wrong. . Trust with courage for you may never know how some will use it but the potential that lie within it. You have power and can control any situation you need. You tell yourself that. You physically say that when you feel anxiety toward doing something because of a potential outcome. You got this! You are strong and have power to control any situation. Build your confidence with motivation toward positive self intervention. Anytime something that seems fine is causing you a lot of grief to do because fear in your mind in holding you back Immediately list out good factors and good outcomes if you were to do it. As soon as you go doubting yourself on something you've got. Break little things down into just the current actions youre doing right now that you need to do it. Saying the current actions as your doing them to yourself as if you were training someone distracts your mind from the doubtful thought of things going wrong. As far as sleeping I used to have the most crazy dreams and had insomnia but through sleep therapies now I feel like I can never sleep long enough hahaha it gets better . . . You just have to allow yourself to

Ur def not alone!! It is totally possible for u not to remember something traumatic. I have holes in my childhood around the times I was assaulted. It could’ve been a thing where it was so traumatic for u that ur brain blocked it out of ur memory