ADHD and Childhood Violence: A Personal Reflection

AFAB, abusive childhood, ADHD only diagnosed in my mid-20s, very violent as a kid. Got into fights frequently until high school.

AFAB here, y e a h, I don’t remember a lot of my childhood but I remember either lashing out or breaking down if I wasn’t included or if someone was egging me on. I wasn’t really bullied per say, but I did a lot of biting in elementary school—scratching and using my weight to swing people to the ground too. I realized I didn’t like being violent and crying all the time, so I started clamming up by middle school. I got bullied a little in middle school, luckily it didn’t carry over to high school. When I stopped being outwardly emotional I ended up just shutting everyone out which made my RSD symptoms worse and my maladaptive daydreams completely took over to shut out the negative thoughts whenever I was in a setting with other people and not having a conversation/active thing to focus on. Good stuff, and I used to wonder why there’s just massive gaps in my memories 🙃

Nowadays I learned to calm down and un stimulate myself and I haven’t been violent in so long

I used to bite and slap anyone and everyone all the time. I had so much anger and overstimulatafikn in me and no way to get it out

I wasn’t violent but I was extremely angry all of the time and almost turned those feelings into actions…

WAIT A SECOND🤯🤯🤯🤯

I was born female and was very violent. I identity as Nonbinary though

I wasn't necessarily violent, I had urges but I never acted out on them. Now that I'm more aware of my mental health, the urges became more prominent and I started having serious panic attacks bc of it. I'm in the process of looking to see if I have adhd.

I did

I asked about sex because therapist said it’s rare