Struggling with Holiday Depression

I feel like I have to fake my reactions and feelings around this time of year. Like you're not allowed to be sad. And as soon as I'm away from people I just turn it off and go back to being flat faced and monotone. Not to say i didn't genuinely FEEL happy around people but it's not the same as BEING happy.

Same. My night and day are now flipped because I’m doing so little. Hang in thwrw

I can relate. I feel so tired and I can't see the purpose in anything. Sleeping all day would be the best self care I could imagine.